Sometimes you get what you need

As if a bum ankle wasn't enough, it seems a summer cold has been added to the mix. Lovely! Anyways, maybe this is a reinforcement of the lesson I'm trying to learn with the ankle recovery that being negative is going to get me nowhere. So my goal of the day is not say anything negative, or at least if I have to be negative, to say it in a positive light. We'll see what happens and who knows, maybe it will make a difference, maybe it won't. But at least, it will be better for those around me, and hopefully, this isn't one of those fleeting moments of inspiration that people get when they sign up for a marathon or decide to only eat raw veggies for the rest of their lives and then run a mile and quit or scarf down an entire cake after a day of carrots and broccoli. So here's to dedication...hopefully being positive will equate to more positive things happening, or I'll at least think they are positive. :)

So today I am thankful for my all the extra time I get to spend with friends and family as they drive me around everywhere!!! Love you guys, you're the best!!!

Not meant to be a blogger

Okay, so I'm not meant to be a blogger, after yet another long hiatus. But what the hell else am I not supposed to be? An athlete, soccer player, to be more specific, perhaps? After knee surgery, more bruises than I can count, a fake tooth, bloody nose and lovely scar to accompany it, six more chipped teeth and now ankle surgery...what else? Hopefully, more soccer down the road. Call me crazy, but I've made worse decisions I'm sure. Plus, what's the point of worrying about what may happen? It's usually not the things that we worry about that are going to hit us hardest, but the ones you never expect. The ones that, according to Baz Luhrman, "blindside you on some idle Tuesday afternoon." (Which, ironically is the day I messed up my ankle...) But anyways, I've wasted three years of my life worrying about every possible doomsday disease and affliction under the sun, and what happened, what robbed me of my summer, freedom, marathon ambitions, etc? Nothing for which I ever could have googled my symptoms. Maybe this is life's way of telling me something, and maybe it's just an unfortunate accident for which I'm digging too deep and trying to find some sort of good in all this mess. Either way, maybe I should take it as a sign and leave it at that.

So today, I'm thankful for a moment of clarity. Let's hope it lingers.