I really hate this year

I really hate days like this. No wait, make that years like this. When everything has a negative shade, nothing looks bright. In fact, it SUCKS. And you know what, hearing everyone say "things will get better" is not what you want to hear, but alas, it's all there is to rely on and hope for. I'm a little over being on the injured list, so let's hope this is just a bad year. Because as much as I like to forget and dwell on the negative, as my Dad continually reminds me, "Everything bad will pass, because nothing, bad or good, lasts forever." It's a sweet and sorrowful truth, but such is life. So come on knees and ankle, let's get well and feeling better. Show me some love and I'll show you some too! I promise. :)

I don't even know what to write

Speechless. That is all. Oh I'm just kidding. Do you really think I would go through all the trouble to actually open my blog and not write anything? Yeah...no. Anyways, this week/month/year has been far less than pleasant. Some things have improved (I'm sure I could think of something if forced), but overall they have SUCKED. Why? I've got another date with my dreaded crutches. Those damn metal toothpicks that are still in my trunk that I wanted to throw out, but somehow couldn't muster the will as I thought someone would need them. I just didn't think it would be me...and so soon. But, as my Dad put it, "It is what it is." Is he right? Yes. Does that things any easier to swallow? Nope. Not in the least bit. So now I've got two bad joints and one bad attitude. So, why physical therapy may help the joints, this may be my mental therapy. But this time around, I don't think I want to talk about the bad, but far, distant memories that I've stored in the dusty corners of my memory and talk about everything else. So, stay tuned.

Sometimes you get what you need

As if a bum ankle wasn't enough, it seems a summer cold has been added to the mix. Lovely! Anyways, maybe this is a reinforcement of the lesson I'm trying to learn with the ankle recovery that being negative is going to get me nowhere. So my goal of the day is not say anything negative, or at least if I have to be negative, to say it in a positive light. We'll see what happens and who knows, maybe it will make a difference, maybe it won't. But at least, it will be better for those around me, and hopefully, this isn't one of those fleeting moments of inspiration that people get when they sign up for a marathon or decide to only eat raw veggies for the rest of their lives and then run a mile and quit or scarf down an entire cake after a day of carrots and broccoli. So here's to dedication...hopefully being positive will equate to more positive things happening, or I'll at least think they are positive. :)

So today I am thankful for my all the extra time I get to spend with friends and family as they drive me around everywhere!!! Love you guys, you're the best!!!

Not meant to be a blogger

Okay, so I'm not meant to be a blogger, after yet another long hiatus. But what the hell else am I not supposed to be? An athlete, soccer player, to be more specific, perhaps? After knee surgery, more bruises than I can count, a fake tooth, bloody nose and lovely scar to accompany it, six more chipped teeth and now ankle surgery...what else? Hopefully, more soccer down the road. Call me crazy, but I've made worse decisions I'm sure. Plus, what's the point of worrying about what may happen? It's usually not the things that we worry about that are going to hit us hardest, but the ones you never expect. The ones that, according to Baz Luhrman, "blindside you on some idle Tuesday afternoon." (Which, ironically is the day I messed up my ankle...) But anyways, I've wasted three years of my life worrying about every possible doomsday disease and affliction under the sun, and what happened, what robbed me of my summer, freedom, marathon ambitions, etc? Nothing for which I ever could have googled my symptoms. Maybe this is life's way of telling me something, and maybe it's just an unfortunate accident for which I'm digging too deep and trying to find some sort of good in all this mess. Either way, maybe I should take it as a sign and leave it at that.

So today, I'm thankful for a moment of clarity. Let's hope it lingers.

Goodbye July

After a month hiatus, all I have to say is here we go again. Good riddance to July, and hopefully August will bring better things. Here's to new beginnings and yet another attempt at facing that nasty little habit known as anxiety. One of these days I'll learn that I'm my own worst enemy, until then, I'll have to take the little pains I self-induce day-by-day, and pretty soon I'll hopefully get fed up with all the scars and start healing myself by learning to love myself.

Today I am thankful for tomorrow, once again.

Grillmasters and Life Planners

Loving my Tuesday dinner dates. This week, we grilled kebabs and they were amazing. Nothing beats grilled chicken! And because I can't keep my eyes open any more, I'll keep Tuesday short and sweet. Better than Monday, better than Wednesday, so far was the best day of the week. Go Tuesday.

Hallelujah for for grilled food and summer weather.

GLS Time

Gym. Laundry. Shower. Man that makes for an exciting Monday. Actually the gym wasn't that bad, and I must say, I really do love going. Although, I'm sure I look slightly ridiculous hopping round on one foot lifting arm weights standing on one leg, but honestly, I don't mind in the least because it makes me feel incredibly accomplished. Which believe me, when you can't even carry your own coffee mug, you look for the little things to make you happy.

So today, I'm thankful for gyms, one of my most favorite places ever.